hmmm....
feeling better already....

I juz realised that the problem with mi is that i dun wait.
i'm always impatient...always want things my way....
well i thought carefully and concluded that many things in life u got to wait....wait for the right moment....tat's the magic of it....;)

moving on will be another helpful tip....everyone seemed to have move on....doudou got her loving muscle man....J** got her sch now to be busy with.....ge**l got out of his blues and is happy now with his girl....
hahaha.....guess it's my turn rite?? better juz forget bout everything and move on bah....
deleted all those sick bitching msges already.....hmmm.....no wonder i feel better....=P

oh well.....like people care....i do it for myself....thus trusting only myself....
same goes for breaking i guess.....every one can never be there for u....u only got urself to be dependant on.....mom was always right.....sorry i took so long to understand that....=X

but better late then never.....i'm now with a brand new me....
only things to concentrate now is basically nothing.....=D
letting loose, busting it loose...

soul gangsta....here we go....

been awhile since i last blog...quite alot on my mind...

FLOORSKILLZ....

was definately a lesson learnt....
with many pros out there hitting the beats....doing power that never seems to end....dancing like the soul needs to shout out of the window...footwork so fast and in many different variations....
i hereby annouce i have alot of catching up to do....sigh =(
maybe i really should juz hide in one corner and brush up instead of fooling around like i always do....damm.....wat the hell have i been doing all these years of breaking....talk too much??? freaking piss with myself.....

Teknyc, Rush, Felix, Farhan....
all shared abit on their knowledge as to how a true bboy should perform(dance)...
i was definately defeated on the spot....i feel like dropping dead....it's like fuck....the way i see it....it's not juz about being korean like....being strong in power or being a powermover...
it's about the dance....it's about the soul....it's about the music....
the music plays and u bring it out in u....not juz by doing the move....trying to hit the beat....it's about how u play it out.....being expressive in ur body....letting it loose....BUSTING IT LOOSE...
to the music....letting loose the monstar in u....not breaking in a controlled manner.....
damm.....and i tell u everytime i wan to go out....i will be nervous.....i will wan to follow the music....but that's not how it is....it's like wat Rush said...."u hear the music....and if it's your music u juz let loose and go.....and juz bring the shit on.....bam bam bam bam bam.....juz like tat...nothing more to it...."
Teknyc said "no i'm not saying it's not wrong to have the powermoves or concentrate on them....it's like u have to be in the box....it's not wrong to think out of the box....but u have to still be in the box" (in this case he is referring to FOUNDATIONS...) "Ur tops, ur footwork ur freezes....then when u get the hang on it how u put them into an abtract mode.... "

i really wan to stab myself for not doing it the right way....right now i have to sought out wat's the real shit and do it correctly i guess....

ARMY...

Good news...I've been posted to Changi Airport....yeah...going to be a rather good life....that's the good thing about being deployed....this time i'm going to a trooper....so i get to walk around the air port seeing the pretty babes walk by....
The bad news is my platoon juz changed a platoon sergant....boy is he a maniac.....i mean wtf....u juz took over the platoon and u think u got the whole company in ur hands??? he's a regular btw....madness....the first words he said was...."if u think u guys wan to play punk.....try mi....i wun hesitated to punch u all and go DB....." wtf....
totally no respect for u man.... the first time he brought mi and my HQ mates out for pt exercise....i nearly died there and then....now i have a whole body in pain....thus i can't really break well these few days....damm.... wat ever it is.....forget it bah....like they say....SAF = "serve and fuck off"
i juz do it once and do it good....complaining will juz get mi no where.....

Love Life....

nothing much have been progressing lately....maybe becuz i choose not to....
not that i dun have girls liking mi....juz that i juz dun see the thing in them....or iszt my expectation are too high.... sigh....i really am confuse now....
and it's always the case....the people whom i really like will never be there for mi....or juz wun give a damm.....but the people whom i dun take interest in juz keep coming unto mi like sandflies....i know it sounds bad la....but u got to know love is a two way thingy.....it's not juz one sided doing all the shit....so u can't really blame mi for not loving them back.....right??
j** ..... great that u found out how iszt like to be loved.....all the best ya....=)
honestly....i'm tired.....i wun deny that it does feel abit painful to know about it....
and that i'm agitated and fuck up right now....but i guess i can't really do much either....
so i shall juz continue my journey as to finding the right one....
everyone getting a partner nowadays....and it's juz puzzles mi so much....and i really that bad??
people who juz broke up can get into a relationship in like a matter a few months....it's been freaking eight months since i last broke up....i never got into a proper relationship....doudou ar...if we never broke up...i wun feel so miserable now man....i juz found my old phone....the one which i have the same model as u(doudou)....and saw all the pics and msges inside....it's really running all over again in my head....damm.....when will it ever end....freaking eight months le lor....sometimes i dun know how i should feel towards u....when i think back the times we were together...it's like u were super sweet and make mi smile and smile....and when we were about to break up, u were super mean till the extend i can grit my teeth so hard right now writing this....damm la....i really juz suck in love man....should have learn to be more independant then....
reading this fucking piece of shit piss mi off again man....FARK!!!

i really need time off from everything man....need to be alone....need to think properly....need to find out a solution to end my misery.....need some one to enlighten mi....desperately need guidance man....sheesh....=X

vic`

sheesh.....floorskills was definately an eye opener this year....
it's not over yet i have no result watsoever yet....damm....i'm getting nervous like b4....
sheesshhhH!!!!!

juz ended field camp....i tink i nearly died lor.....came back in the morning one day b4 FS2006....
carried my signal set walk around like siao.....got attack by super alot of sand flies....Ch**bY*.....now i look like i got chicken pox...cannot take off shirt when i break until sweat like pig....kuku.....i will get u man.....sand flie siboh....u wait.....next field camp i bring some thing go burn all u little blood suckers...
the nite trail walk was a killer.....630 pm walk till 4am....with my signal set and fieldPACK in total about 22 kg++ bah....if that's not bad enough...listen to this....i didn't walk on the road or tracks....but in the forested area where i have to bash, chop trees, go up hill down hill, cross river, get attack by mega huge ants, get scratched by thorns AND WALK IN DARKNESS....SIAO DE!!!....all in all together with my heavy field pack cum signal set i nearly wanted to drop out....lucky i never....heng ar....save my own best pt face....lol....oh well, it's all over and i dun wan to talk about it....but sand flies u muther cHE**EE.....u wait...u wait...make mi so ugly....kuku....

anyway....all the best for mi and my crew for the results to be out tomolo....jiayou la jiayou....
really nothing to say bout the com le....they really farking zai....chiong ar!!!!

juz came home....damm tired man....finish five performance in two days...
lucky for mi...the money came in already....so it's so ok la...lol...
going back camp soon man.....time is tight.....performances may be held for a stop now....but field camp is tis coming tuesday....how to tahan sia....

anyway.....i will juz take it like a man....
come out train probable for one day...then have to go straight and wack floorskillz le.....
hmmm....how how??
jiayou to mi man...
i better go prepare le....late le late le....

peace~

juz came back from liquid....WOAH!!!
doPE ShyT MAN....
session till like there was no tomolo....
great to see a few farmilar faces.....
troy, felix, inertia(rf), defination,big ben, O school instructors, dharni....
damm was it tight....pretty girls every where but none for my taking....=(
when is my princess going to come....hahaha....

anyway getting back my airflare....and i sure mean it.... ; )

combos getting longer....but body getting weaker....tired le.....but still got alot of shows to do...sheesh....never mind....it will be a good experience....jiayou.....

haha.....met up with celine recently....but boy do u shock mi with ur wonderful news....hahaha
met up with j** b4 that....Ooppsss....my hand slip... =p but dun know why leh....it was like not that i purposely also....i dun know how to explain....aiyah...wat the heck rock the discotheque....lol

power moves power moves....come on come on....come to papa.....
floorskillz coming up....jia you jia you.....""O"" =p
it's going to be mi sabri and JR...with the juniors....i must not let them down....we can do it.... =)

something still missing in my life now....sigh.....
dun know wat iszt....
hope to find it soon.....=)

peace~

Million things keep on changing everyday, for millions of years it never change.Thousand thoughts changing everyday, for thousand years the fact never fade away....Cherish the pastTreasure the presentLook forward to the future =)Past events are histories that are unchangeable no matter wat u attain.You shall look into lesson learnt from the events and carry on walking.Present is the current timeline that we are living in,It's the only time and space we are able to make our life better at this point of time.The friends and the universal around us is unique and only to each individual.Treasure each and everything that are happening, for it will never happen again and not to anyone else.Future is the unknown events that is awaiting usWhatever we did in the past will result in a different future.The future is equally unique and special to each of us, no one can experience the same feelings at all, not even a single glimpse.since life is so unpredictable, why not we welcome it with open arms and with a smiling face.Time is similar to a running stream.On the surface of the river, there are leaves floating along with the flow. In the bottom of the water, there are rocks and sands rolling with the current.The burden you let off will be the leaves floating away with the flow.and never come back into our life.The sadness you hold on in your heart is the rock and sand rolling under the stream that keep on drilling into your heart, hurting you even more.LET GO WILL GAIN U FREEDOM AND HAPPINESS.....peace

my leave has finally came to an end....going back tomolo at nite.....9pm
sigh.....boring army...shitty army.....give mi a longer break mah....

anyway....today i tried dressing up abit....was trying to look abit like a USA bboy....:P
tink cannot make it la...lol....
went to O-school....tink i should really take a few pictures there man....it's so cool....i like =D
stay till late....forgot to bring my hp out....blah blah blah....
wat's else happen today???? eh....oh ya...she really did msg mi....hmmmm....didn't bring my phone out leh....sorrie girl ;)

came to know more about the other instructors....funny bunch.....friendly group.....
shared cab home with ben and daniel and carol....
now back here....blogging....going to sleep later i tink....juz wan to study abit more on the breaking vids....think abit more for my new found routine....=D

anyway regarding my previous blog bout how i said i hate my mom??? i take it back ya.....
i do love her to bits....juz tat i ws so angry.....sorrie mommy....hahaha....

breaking not much improvement...sianz....been battling jeral....must find more variations for my tops....be more freestyle and let loose more.....
power improve abit.....will try out a few more new links i got recently and try to be more constant.....wat else wat else....basically tat's about it i guess......
Oh....Happy birthday Dou Dou and Kai yi.....u both 21 le.....wish you girls be happy in watever things u have....stay young and pretty.....and may ur wishes come true.... ;)

guess that's about it.....will blog soon again....

peace~

things in my life getting complicated.....
breaking has been tiring....till the point my joints and muscles ache....
tink i rest abit b4 continue my training....air flares....combos....power moves....let mi get u back ok???

things that has been on my mind lately:
doudou
j**
mum =(

been talking abit to doudou recently....and wonder why things turn out always this way....
u always not happy with my doings....even till now....i bet we can never achieve a happy ending even if we are still together...sorrie if i speak my mind....but u will be still u....the person that i know with not a very positive side....sorrie but tat's wat i tink u tink of all the time....at least that's the impression u give mi always when we are talking on msn or msg....aiyah i dun even know wat i'm saying....it's so complicated....it's so WEIRD....i still tink of those times and smile back thou...and u almost made mi cry again....why??? wat did u put in mi during our two year plus relationship??? why does it still hurt???
wish u will spare a thought for ur poor bf who is sick now thou....yes he is irritating....but u can't really expect him to be the perfect person rite?? not all people can endure a tough chick like u u know....i know i can....yes he can too.....wat i'm saying is....cherish wat u have now ok??? and no i'm not trying to start a war here wat so ever....so peace arite??? =)

j**:
u know how weird that it even happen??
nobody expected it la....yes....we did have happy memories....but that was not long lasting anyway....yeah i know...i ain't nobody to u....u have a life of ur own too....and i respect that....
juz miss the times we had together la....at least u were the person who cared when nobody else did....so who are they to comment?? but it didn't work out anyway....sometimes i wish u would pay abit more attention to wat i have in mind....sigh....knowing ur busy schedule and priorities....i keep telling myself....let it go let it go....but it's juz so hard and u will never understand tat....
u are mean at times to u know that?? all i did was to miss u and tried to cheer u up....and wat i got in return is a fair share of ur foul mood....sigh....it's so demoralising....it's so i dun know wat to say man....

mom....
u have change le....no longer u are that responsible mother i knew of.....i know u still care bout mi and my bro....but the thing is its not juz tat.....as a family i believe my father get a fair share of care and concern too ya??? but u juz dun understand tat....yes u know he works all day, now even must do OT to cover up some difficult times....but instead of giving him the support he needs....u went out....play with ur friends.....guys or girls i also dun know....all i know is u are always not around....wat the hell....i'm super dissappointed in u u know?? i totally cannot stand ur nonsense despite my repeated pleadings.....u juz dun understand how important it is for mi to see u and dad happy with each other....no u dun....and u say u still care bout mi....wat rubbish....
my father is always tired and u know that....i can't be around for him becuz of FUCKING ARMY....but u have the time....instead of spending quality time....u rather go drink go KTV with those joker friends of urs....u changed....and sad to say.....i dun like u any more.....not in this way....it was his birthday and where were u??? i hate u man i really do.....

lucky the only console i get is in breaking....channel all my hatred into those freaking fuck shit powermoves...busting it out all....always trying to be funny when i'm not....not at all lor....i'm so different from the rest....and yes i must agree.....aiyah watever la....

today....i went to teach my first lesson in O school.....damm was the studio tight....went breaking in the studio after the lesson....
girls were hot....met ben too....everyone was so cool looking and professional....
btw did i mention milk from energy was there too?? fucking crazy fans....u are stupid i tell u all....no offense to milk...but i juz tink that the girls there are so kuku la....
anyway i took a pic with him and also got him to sign the studio instructor cap....maybe i can sell it on ebay =P hahah...
then went to esplanade to break after tat....was sick....and also my joints and muscle hurting from those hardcore pushing in powermoves....so can't do much....guess i really really need my rest le....after which we went to jeral house nearby for supper following which we went up to his place to mix a song for the performance coming ahead....sigh....i really miss performing.....but with my fucking skill.....perform ki lan.....=X anyway went back home after that.....gilbert gave mi and alex a lift[ Thanks bert, it was nice of u =) ]....i guess bert is a happy man now ya....jiayou to u and joyce arite???
so many things in my head going round and round and round......
tell mi how sia....haiz....watever bah.....God will help mi pull tis thru....i'm sure he has his reasons in the first place....
Victor is not really a happy person now....never really was in the first place....

period.

holiday for a week.....
wtf....
time for some good HARDCORE training.....
time for some clubbing with dope music and booze.....
time to hit the BEACH and TAN!!!!......wooo hoooo~~

deployment ended and now here comes my long deserved holiday...
going to make full use of it....
not going to spend much money thou.....
but if possible i dun mind clubbing....not at all....hahaha
going to chiong my power till like siao......
catch up with zrul and liang....
then keep playing cypher with them.....
sure damm fun la....if al three can long combos....
or rather if i can long combo....cuz the two of them already can =(
oh well....hope i have this one full week properly plan out....
no smoking pls......i had enough le.....stop for quite some time....but the urge is still there....ass.....

anyway...juz one more thing to add....
juz hope everyones getting arite.....lol :P

peace yall....