BUSTIN LOOSE

2007-03-16T10:41:00.000+08:00

Floor skillz yo....It's today.....16th march -17th march...

Let's do this....

Hmmm....not really preapred....but definately going all out.....
This year is going to be madness i swear....

ATA, BOUNCE, DUCKY!!!!

Enuff Said man...
Props to all the foreign crews for coming down repping where they from....
It's going to be tough man....
BUT I LIKE heh...

kinda gotten used to how i should live now....
juz abit disappointed with some issues.....
Will never allow myself going in to a crazy mode any more....
Anything or anybody causing stress shall not be in my circle no more...

I have a positive plan coming up and I'm looking forward towards it...
nothing and nobody ain't stopping me now....hehe....

JIA YOU!!!

2007-03-04T21:21:00.000+08:00

So i was down....
I used my blog to vent my frustrations....
to relieve my stress.....is that wrong too??

Anyway i'm too tired to comment....
or wan to try resolve....
my head hurts....
SO much i can't eat....

save money la...fuck care....

I wan to give thanks to Mahmud for bringing that thing back in me....
that Fury in me...
The desire to Be GOod...
TO dance....
building up my confidence....
opening my eyes once again....
I juz wan to say....I'M BACK!!!
Back and harder.....
training so damm hard now....

Anyway dope song "Poppa Large"
lyrics so deadly....

"I get busy on them....
communicate with the world....
Man, women
baby boy and a girl!!!"

2007-02-24T05:10:00.000+08:00

FUCK ING PIECE OF SHIT!!!!

23 of FEB.

FUcking Noob day...

Why iszt it has to happen on me....

Why iszt i have to go thru shit all the time.

I never pray for anything extrodinary man....i juz wan to be able to breathe normally, be healthy, have a normal family, have sufficient income to live by.

Is that too much??

breaking = shit

relationship = shit

Health = shit

Everything = shit

Everything has been a down fall ever since she left me....

1. ARMY
Fucking army only know how to put pressure on men....ask them do this do that....when u achieve it.....they say oh good we should set higher standard....

I MAY BE THE BEST PHYSICAL TRAINEE AROUND BUT I STILL FUCKING HUMAN....
THE REASON I CAN'T BREATH NORMALLY IS BECUZ OF U FUCKING CUNT RETARDS MAKING ME RUN NON STOP.....CRAWL NON STOP.....USING THE PHRASE "BEST PT LEH" NON STOP.....FUCK ALL OF U GREEN MUNSO FUCKERS....HOPE U ALL ROT IN HELL.

2. Dad's Finiancial crisis. Credit card's bill.
if my dad is to use the credit card to buy expensive unreasonable stuff then he ought to deserve getting broke but no....it's to pay up for all the taxes and bills and monthly payment of the house....And SIA is too FUcked themselves too. they actually ask there people to take more no pay leave?? this is Fucking Bull!

3. Girlfriend who is sensitive??
I NEVER GOING TO SAY ANOTHER WORD.

4. MOM

The last thing i would wan to know is my drunk mom on the car driving around for 5 hours not knowing where is home...
hey mom i dun wan to say this but FUCK U MAN....WTF U THINKING!!!!
Gone are the days where my mom was the most sensible one in the family....
Gone are the days where my mom will still cook....
Now my mom only put her friends before the Family....hogging on the phone all the time....house phone handphone....
totally selfish....
dun give a shit that the family is in crisis now....
and that dad might be out of Job soon she still wan to play....have fun and merry.....
dun give a shit to house in need to save and still drive all her fucking dog friends all around....
dun give a shit whether the whole family is up waiting for her to be back knowing she might be in danger....
dun give a shit when asked where she was she still didn't say....
dun give a shit when my dad went out on his bike to find her....
wtf la u....really two ways man....
FUCKING DISAPPOINTED....
i dun tink i can bring myself to talk to u anymore man.....

5. Breaking
Health problem making me cannot give in my best in breaking...i mean I've been doing this for like 7 years? and if this is wat i do then how come i can't be good at it?? POwermoves suck.....footwork bullshit.....top rocks jiasai.....Yeah I really must agree i no longer have the same stamina as before already....no longer have the same drive.....no longer wan to be the best....

too much things happening in my life....suddenly all these only made me remember of one person....Tay Peishan....If i have
treat her properly....really really properly.....will today have happened??
was so down today....i dug out all my old stuffs and found all her letters and pictures.....couldn't help but teared....

i know this not relevent to wat's happening but i share it anway...
Here's a part of the letter she wrote:
(pei i hope u dun mind this)

"tossing and turning i juz can't get to sleep.....tis is by far the most personal letter you receive is wat i feel deep down you should know.....life would have been mundane if not for u...people always say if u love someone u should love the person fully flaws included....but i guess i'm selfish and spoilti refuse to love parts of u i can't accept...i hate it when you shout i hate it when u get angry at me and refuse to tell me why you're upset...i hate it when we are broke and have nothing to do....it makes me wonder if i have to have so much hate then how can i still love.....but i do...i love you Victor Soh JiA Qing.....wif all my heart......from when i do not know....but all i know is i still love you how as i write this.....everytime you get upset wif me or angry it hurts so bad it's like being stabbed a million times only i can't die i'm bleeding it hurts so bad it wun go away....no one will understand and no one can help me....no one but u....juz a touch from you juz a sign that u still want me and still care for me is all i need.....with juz that touch i suddenly feel like i'm on cloud 9...i cry even harder not from pain but from relief.....relieft that u are still mine...but this can only last about a week or so b4 the stabbing pain comes back.....sometimes i juz wan to let go of you juz a byebye and leave... sad to say i can't do it....
it's juz difficualt and scary.......i really dunno....we are still so young our relationship is still at its infantry....we both have such different goals and aspiration in life we are driven by very different things....the only thing we share is the love for each other....one thing i learnt about our relationship is nothing is perfect....i will have to take one step at a time....live life a day at a time.....but right now i still wan to hold on to that hand of urs....coz you are the most imp thing in my life....i can't live without you...i need you i wan you....and i wan you now...."

letter so sweet yet it did not serve as a reminder of how i should be treating her....
too bad everything is over.....

Pls Lord....Juz show me the restart button to life.....

2006-11-25T03:04:00.000+08:00

You know....i've never forgotten i got a blog....

the reason why is becuz i just to moody to talk about it....

i'm been trying so hard to be good at wat i'm doing....yes....bboying...

but it just seems that it's all too hard for me....

I juz wan to improve....to have my basics....and in the later stage to own...

so then i practise hard....but i dun reap wat i sow....

instead i got all injured....my both thumbs busted from all the footwork....

my thigh muscle tearing up from all the CC and russian steps....

my left bicep tearing from all the halos.......

down hill for mi baby....i juz wan to be zai u know??

i wan to be called a bboy....

I wan to show it all....tat's it's in my blood too....

some people ain't tat lucky all the time...

Kelvin talk abit to me actually

and i found his points to be true....

some thing like this....

" aiyah, juz do wat u love doing... dun care about the rest, breaking is for yourself...it's ur own self expression...dun do it for the sake of doing it... "

and i get wat u mean bro....thanks =)

I do miss all the times when breaking was meant to be for myself and being happy....

It's a pity after breaking for 6 years to remember that now....

Fuck it....i juz get my ass to practising....

ENUFF SAID~

2006-10-28T02:38:00.000+08:00

Ok so it's been very long since i last post...

dun know wat i'm thinking i guess....

very tired always very sick very lazy....

Guess i will talk about the event this time round.
Everything went rather smoothly....except for the music stopping here and there due to over heating....

I was so busy outside doing the administration stuff that when the cypher started i didn't have time to go help jon wif it...when i finally couldn't take it i peep into the studio....and wat i saw made my hair stood up....inside the small studio was a handful of seventy people or maybe abit more all coming together in a big cypher to do their thing....
Really a wonderful sight...

It could have been better if only those free loaders know wat it's like to be fair to the others....

Free loaders who tried to sneak in claiming that it's suppose to be free....
and giving any other disgusting reason to lie their way in....
Let me get this straight...If u tink i'm juz trying to earn ur 8 bucks u better go get a grip....It's juz about being fair to the rest....and I'm not stupid....the only two reasons why i let u in is becuz one: I didn't wan to make a bad scene....two: becuz i PITIED U!
Hey juz a word to u peeps...i'm the guy who organized this thing...Dun make it sound as if u know more then me.....it's juz pure disgusting....YES! U are Pure Disgusting....This event here is to help see the scene come up more....if every other singaporean bboys pay....why can't u....And u still have the cheek to sit in admist the rest of them....and u call urself a bboy...SHAME ON U!!

And the other incident is people who came to visit did not know how to respect the culture and place....I didn't even know this is happening till people who turned up for the event one by one told me about it....I was so disappointed....they had to add in rude comments and think they know every other dance forms....

This dance is juz wat we do....is wat every other bboys live for....
maybe not for u....but every where else....people do have their interest....be it breaking, skateboarding, drawing, pet grooming to playing of some game cards...it's all juz interest....they come together to share....to learn, to live it up...
U people have to open ur big mouth talking loudly till the whole world knows about it and spoil their morale....
i'm sure u people have interests too....do u like it if we start critisizing bout every other thing tat may be of concern to ur interest??
it juz show wat kind of calibre u humans are....

Yeah besides all that....everything else was dope....
battles were dope....event was dope...
much love to all u peeps who came to support....

Juz one word to all the others who tried to spoil everything...
" Disgusting"

It's juz a small start....hopefully there will be more Jams to come...

Until then i guess it's training time again....haiz....
Oh well....at least i can see the future of my halo....

Jia you!!

Peace~

2006-10-12T11:32:00.000+08:00

"BBOY NITE OUT" [JAM] 21st Oct 2006
Message:
Hi To all My Bboys, Bgirls & friends Out there!

I'm organising a Bboy jam on 21 Oct 2006...
7pm-10pm and it's open to u Bboys and Bgirls...
and all those interested in coming down to take alook
at how the BBoy(aka breakdance) scene is like in Singapore.

Sporting crews from

Floor technique
Radical Force
Fuyo
Inertia
and many more..

With random battles
[1v1, 2v2, crew battle],
Cyphers...
You even get to shout out to the person
u wana battle all in a nice studio environment....
so do come down and support the Singapore very own Bboying scene....

Administrative fee price at $8.
For More queries You can Contact:
EitherVictor[ftc] via hp: 90288348
or Jonathan[Fuyo] via hp: 91042796

For Those Who Interested In The Jam!
Meeting Place Will be at====Orchard MRT Station
Be There at====6:15pmThere Will Be People To lead You
All to The Studio. =D

Please No Late Comer!
As Time is Precious & we would like to
start theJam On Time!
We Encourage You Bring Along Some Of Friends too.
To have a look what is it like in a Bboy Jam!

hope to Cya All There!
Peace!

2006-09-23T04:03:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED 22TH BIRTHDAY!!!!

WOOOO~~~

boring.

2006-09-10T15:48:00.000+08:00

OMG!! I'M BACK!!!

lots of shopping...lots of madness there....

gotta break gotta break....

pics not uploaded yet....

damm.....

miss baby....

juz glad a big chapter in my NS life is over....

i'm running late....got a date....

gotta walk in the rain again....

gotta shop more.....

promise to update about wat happen in taiwan....

but right now let mi go kill my urges.....

chill!!!

2006-08-24T01:32:00.000+08:00

hmmm.....guess wat....
two days in a row?? how possible???

damm....is this some kind of a joke....
it's juz too scary.....
was doing shopping anyway....
bought a new black jacket with hood[$35]....
a brown converse high cut shoe[$60 plus]....
a pair of black reebok tights....[$40 wtf!!]
a dope black knee pad[$20 plus]...

hmmm.....never spend so crazy b4...
i still have about 500 plus to bring to taiwan to kill...
must try to find a nice baseball cap
and also a nice spin cap....
then shop for clothes i guess....
and maybe some snacks to bring home....

sheesh....tough training here i come...
breaking pls dun go away too...
i promise i be good....=(

ok i'm nuts....
after shopping went to eat Carls' JR with gf
baby today so sweet looking...
after tat she went to meet her friends while i went
off to break....

got a new set...
thanks to the knee pad...
making my footwork look more smooth....
hahah....cool beans!!!
juz hope i dun lose them thou...
better write them down some where....

okok....i better faster to go play some dota then go to sleep early...

peace!

2006-08-23T11:22:00.000+08:00

Taiwan ROC` 24 August 2004
Changi Airport T2 2030 hrs....
aka tomolo....wooo~
here i come baby....

seen Pei recently....she look abit different...
but i could tell straight away it was her.....
eating outside cartel at raffles shopings centre with her clique....
didn't say hi thou....juz weird la....lol....
i put on my hood and walk faster....
tat's how it is bah....between the both of us....
for now....and time to come....
well at least she got wat she wans and tat's good enuff for mi....
to know that she's happy =)

anyway...i'm happy too lor....
lol...I got breaking....i got my friends...i got my God and i got my Gwen...
=D i love u baby.....;)

will worry bout breaking thou....two weeks plus....dun know will rusty anot....sianz...
come back must work extra hard le.....
got movie shooot to do also....cannot lose out....
argh!!!!
so it's going to be long b4 i post again....
watever bah.....

peace
p.s.
I miss u

2006-08-20T14:30:00.000+08:00

JIU MING AR!!!!

field camp field camp field camp.....

KE SI LA....

fourty plus kg load on my bag is no kidding man....
my platoon mates also wun know de...
only kq personnels will know....
argh!!

immediately after field camp....
i got gaurd duty....cb!
if not can go EG's studio break lor....
knn....have to regect mahmut.....

miss breaking so much....
and also didn't get to see gwen for like wat
a week and a half??
I wonder how am i going to survive Taiwan man...
15 days lor....
i worry about my breaking...
it's a good thing to i made good use of a
note pad and started writing down my moves...
if not sure forget man...

went liquid room with felix last nite....
ah beng sia....went in berms....hahhaa
my platoon mates was like lucky u came....
hahaha....always say i put their aeroplane...
well....not tat i would love to put your aeroplane guys....
but u guys sure know where my heart is rite??
in my very own passion[drumroll.....................]
BBOYING~~~~lol =D

liquid room was fun la...
saw the whole definition there.....all come over
and hug mi like siao...hahaha....
even yoshhi and kelvin was there too man....
and kelvin keep giving mi MARTEL....wtf!!
at least i smart never drink so much....

haha....the cypher was good....but i still need to touch up alot of areas...
only thru a battle u know where u go wrong....
u were right felix.....
i'm going to battle more practise more.....
but for now.....
it's time to take a short break and concentrate on wat's around the corner....
ROC =(
ok la....at least the RnR is going to be fun....
hope to find a spin cap....Mine is a goner man....
tired le .....wan to go wash my dirty clothes and other stuff....

chill guys...
peace

2006-08-13T10:54:00.000+08:00

yeah...back to update...

Got really wasted last night.....
Chivas green tea....
till the point my friend have to carry mi up to my bed....
for once i felt disgusted with myself....

Had a competition yesterday....
and there's this two things i learnt....
for one
never to go easy....or play lightly....
and two to juz go do ur shit then be hesitant if anybody wans the rounds...
it's like u wan it juz go do ur shit....
once on the floor...it's yours man....

yeah!!

it's juz disappointing that thou easy points,
i have to take tis lesson at the com....
but never too late thou....all the way all the way....

hopefully i can learnt up more basics....
get really flow with my footwork....
and start smoking....not literally smoking thou i do....
but smoking my enemies.... =D

And amy....it's not i dun wan to update la....
I'm really too busy with training....
breaking...girlfriend and all....
but I'll try ya....haha ;)

going to have a rehearsal shoot later....
wah lan eh....acting again....sure kana laugh one....
ll....i better go prepare le.....

next two weeks 24 aug....taiwan LOOOO......
siao liao....signal set really freaking heavy la...
really wan to shout out of my window.... "!@#$%^"
but loon say it's going to be damm fun....so i juz going to
take his word and look on the bright say....

till then i better practise hard
write it down b4 i forget every single of my
routine and basics in taiwan....
sianz.....will be 15 days ....
can't break can't see my dearie....can't this
can't tat...."really wan to shout "!@#$%" out of my window
another time sia....

Sian Sian Sian.....
tuesday field camp....
Freaking busy.....
so many things to do....so little time....see wat
i mean Amy??

Haha...better go prepare for my reheasal le....

Peace!

2006-08-01T02:36:00.000+08:00

First day of my off and already i have alot of wonderful things happening....

Mostly Breaking wise....
I had a talk with mahmut aka Killerone...
about how iszt we know when enough is enough.....
how exactly are we going to smoke those people with only tricks and mad blow ups
up their sleeves...

Glad this big brother in bboying(thou he's not older then mi =P) really shared his opinion and knowledge of not juz wat i asked...
but also talking abit more on how a battle should be played....
how i should react...
how am i to find that soul...and flava....
about having a certain amount of standard powermove....
and also mixing power with style....
not forgetting he showing me so many ways simple footwork can move around....
basics is definately a must....since everyone is doing it....
i dun know la...it's still very complicating the way i see it...
anyway really must give Props to Mahmut for Being the way he is....
being there for Bboys like us....
it's becuz of people like him....
i have the desire to wan to be better....
and the desire not to disappoint myself....

And thanks to him....
every single day i'm slowly discovering how a bboy should be like....
It's a slow and but yet not subtle change....but it's definately for the better.....
To be an All Rounder Bboy....to be able to power and footwork combine in a dance....
Yes...to be able to dance....

Yeah....thinking about it gets me excited....
boy am i happy too...
I got new sets, and lots of whole new ideas....
got back most of my power combos too.....
I guess i will concentrate on the basics powermoves such as
Mill to Flare, and Backspin to Chairs now....
not to forget that i have to yet make my airswipes more consistant...
Alex fan la....wat old school Air tracks....lol.....
=P

Had my dosage of Gwenadol just now...and already missing ya....
;)

SO.....
I hereby declared that Day 1 of my Block leave
a successful and enjoyable 1
Woot Woot.....
=D

Peace
=)

2006-07-28T02:33:00.000+08:00

YEAH!!!
My Fav song at the moment is finally out....
Full of Soul and Flava =D
Thanks to Yahoo for the HTML codes....
Woot Woot~~

Didn't break much thou...
but combos still around not to worry...
hahaha...

Getting abit of ideas as to where I'm seeking in my life of bboying...
It's always great to know where u are heading....
now juz to work harder.....
sudden Fetish for One handed roll back freezes....
sianz....dun know if i go learn will be a waste of time anot...
Freaking hard to do a good one....
hmmm....guess the boat will be straight once it reaches the dock...
see how it goes bah....

Last three deployment days b4 i go for my block leave next week....
phhheewwweeetttt!!!!
wed till sunday off....
break break break break break.....hahaha
Oh it's G's birthday on thursday....
so i tink i cancel thursday out....Yeah!!

will blog again soon i guess....

peace out~

p.s. Dota is getting on my nerves......=X

2006-07-23T17:15:00.000+08:00

I hope my song is out man...damm upload it like a couple hours ago but it's still not out....

hmmmm going to go back in camp in like a couple of hours....sheesh.....

whole body damm damm sore la...
from all the breaking....
but still i must push....haha....

trying to know wat are my priorities and also the wants in my life...
Iszt going to be Echo or Golf??

not that golf is a bad girl....juz that we have no time....
and no same interests....and we put our other friends before us...
tat's wat i feel....we really should work on it....
but of cuz we were still happy juz that i feel that it have been alot better
...

Echo....??? sigh.. juz miss the times we were out till late night....
and the rushing to catch a movie all the time after breaking together...
and all ur silly pouting....dammm....
thou always tell me never mind...but i knew obviously u still care....
becuz u would not have ask me that again...

It's so confusing....

2006-07-17T03:43:00.000+08:00

Re concile with my brother le...
hurts to see my mom not happy...
i'm the big brother anyway....
juz give in bah.....

forgive and forget is one thing i must learn to do...

guess i shall forget everything bad that happen and look forward to happier days...

break break break....

can't wait to break later again....

better go sleep soon...

chill =)

2006-07-13T03:26:00.000+08:00

yes it's another bad day....

but heck la...cuz i know the problem ain't with mi....
i dun wan to hate people....so maybe i stay away....
but really....who likes to be told wat to do and when to do...
and when u dun u get scolded and they show u attitude....
and the best part is....over a freaking game...
WTF!!!
feel sorry for him man....
but it's ok....like i say...it's juz a game....
i dun give a damm or have to be bothered with him...
YES....i really should stay away....

Another freaking issue....
Recently my tolerance level has been very low....
maybe the devil is playing with mi again...
i get pissed and angry easily.....
so easily i almost gave my bro a fresh swollen face for
his birthday....
luckily the Lord had mercy on me and took me away to my room quickly and lock me up....
piss me off knowing my own brother dun give a damm when people care for him....

Lord please be with me....
and take all these unhappiness away....
forgive mi for my sins
as i forgve those who sin against me...
do not bring me to a time of trail...
but deliver me from evil...
from the Kingdom, the Power and Glory
are yours....
now and forever...

peace

2006-07-01T01:23:00.000+08:00

been so long since i last blog....
sheesh...

everythings fine....
been real busy....but it's all good...
i could feel as if i was making good use of my time now....
except for missing my tp for like 8 mths already....
and yes duh.....due to army of cuz.....
but never mind...i have grown adaptable to situations now....
esp in camp....all those last minute weekend guard duties ain't a fear in mi any more....
hahaha....u lose SAF....

been breaking alot in camp too....with nasser....all those crazy style he showed....
indeed made mi woke up....props to u bro....for sharing with mi so many of ur stuffs......
bboy indeed....
No disrespect to bboys out there thou.....
juz my own opinion.....
that one should not juz concentrate on juz the basic itself....
yes having it is good....
but too much of a good thing ain't going to work....
tat's for mi....=)

original is good....
but so is every individual style....
so long as it's still looks like it's breaking....
i guess it's all good....

juz feel that if u have mad creativity like the koreans....
dun fear to bring them out....it's not wrong too.....
juz another way of expressing....
not out here to create a bad scene or start a history or something....
juz that i feel....its dance....
it's the way we express ourself...
and thus.....there are alot of other ways too....
you guys feel mi??

so long as it dun look like it's turning into something creepy or stupid....
juz bboying in another crazy way....
i guess it's all good.....

hmmm....read Pei's blog...seems like she's having a happier life now....
with her mr chongky....lol....funny weird couple la....all those trips they made to
KL made mi so envious man....
I ALSO WAN TO GO OVERSEAS PLAY!!!!
better save up again....hahaha.....

and U....silly girl....i need my Gwenadol....
miss u to bits...
;)

p.s: It's juz my kind of view towards bboying....pls correct me if u feel otherwise =)

peace

peace
=)

2006-06-18T01:13:00.000+08:00

Every single thing happens for a reason....

Why I'm injured?
Why I'm activated?
Why I'm not able to join BOTY?

The only reason i can find out what my God is telling me is...

I'M JUZ NOT READY YET....

I ain't going to take this as a bad thing....
thou i seriously miss joining my crew together for a battle...
but deep down...I'm juz not ready man....
No! i'm not beaten down....so dun worry...
In fact i will train harder....one good thing is at least i have
more consistency in my Power now....

ABLE TO DO LIST:

4 continous air swipes[A.S.]
A.S. to Flare
Flare to A.S.
Mills to Headspins
Headspins to Flare

I'm juz not happy seeing only like this man....damm it...
boy am i going to be more strict training wise....
more groove....more flava.....more footworks....more blowups....

I juz wan to improve and wan to be better....and Lord...
only U know how hard i want it....so help me...and be with me....

Peace!!

2006-05-28T04:25:00.000+08:00

SOME ONE JUZ MADE MY DAY....=D

It's the first time such a thing happen to mi...a silly one too...but it's damm sweet can...
shit man...got mi smiling all the way....thou i could have react better....sure did look super dumb... but hey...u can't blame mi....never kana like tat b4 wat....hahaha....=P

Caught the show X-men
So it was a "not bad"
WHY?
This is how i feel:

The battle could have included more heroes on the Xmen side...
The whole show lasted less then two hours....like hello....it's suppose to be the so called final episode....
Scott's gone?? i dun remember that in the comics....
Mr arch angel could have done more things then juz act pretty flying around....
Rougue became human??? not that i know of in the comics too....

On the better side
Storm's ass is like damm nice la....
so is Mystic....damm it....
Juggernuat is huge!!
[i know in cartoon they drew juggernuat two times a normal tall person....but then again it's cartoon....so give the man some love arite??]
Jean grey power's surely is amazing.....[ class 5 o_O!! ]
There are alot more mutants in the show this time....juz lovely =D

Yeah...tat's my opinion....one from a huge marvel fan....=P
and i juz got the gut feeling that it's not going to be the last episode in the cinemas...
heh....I dun know, U tell mi...=)

i better brush up my breaking soon....it's rusty....again...yesh!!!
time to do some running too....Ben said i look fat....[long time no see u, u like tat say mi... haha no la kidding i know it too bro...]

going back camp tomolo nite....sheesh...deployment again....super slack life....
might as well give mi the offs instead....
bloody Army....

going to hit the sacks soon....damm tired...
peace out!

[U got mi thinking.....i got u on my mind....=)]

2006-05-27T04:15:00.000+08:00

It's been awhile since i last blog...
juz a little catching up of wat recently happen these past few days....

Went back to the woods feeding the mosquito again....
this time it was for the platoon live firing.... finally i'm getting the hang of it....YES!!!
I'm referring to my "signal set" damm freaking heavy piece of useless dead weight...
oh well....might as well bring this training to good use since ROC is around the corner....
not that i dislike out field.... it's really fun with all my buddies around....
esp when we fire the illum rounds at nite....
the whole place felt like it was the very own STAR WARS itself.... haha

Very soon my bros will have a taste of wat Army is like....
very soon i'm going to miss them all so much...Damm....

Oh well....everyone guy has to go thru that....so might as well bring it on with a smile.... =D
there was nothing much to do in camp....besides eating, sleeping, gyming, soccer, running... like Duh....wat else is new....=X

Been msging and talking to her quite alot till i'm damm scared my bill going to blow...
it's very confusing....i dun dare to give it my all....it's definately true that they say once bitten twice shy....SSheesh....i guess i better watch myself and take it slowly....
But hey....i wun deny it's a good thing....yup =D

Juz came back from my platoon gathering held at East Coast park pit 41. It was damm mad can?? we played truth or dare....volleyball....soccer....strip people to their birthday suits and took photos.....threw people into the sea including my mdm....haha....she was holding on to mi so tightly la....but no way am i going to give in tis time....lol....
had lots of boose and good food....drunk people every where....it's was damm happening....hahhaa.....but there was no trouble...the only bad thing that happen was i fell from a bicycle i was riding....sigh....=(

If i knew i would not have fetch my friend....he damm heavy la can....Freaking PAIN!!!
but nonetheless, it's was a very good relaxing nite....partying like mad people....
really nice memories that's going to be with mi for the longest time.... love u guys Plt 15...

Came back pretty tipsy myself....lucky sgt kenneth drove mi home.... talk abit on girls and everything....haha....
Dun worry....u are a nice guy....u will find one very soon la....lol =P

Shall rest soon...it's been a long nite...
tomolo still have to rehearse in Oschool for BOTY SG....
Thanks to bro kenny for allowing mi and my crew to use his tight studio....
hopefully the crew will make good use of it and practise hard....=)
We sure de need to get started asap la....
Really really really hope FTC will bag this one back...*hopes*

Arite...i stop here now...
will blog soon again....
peace out....

[missing u =) ]

2006-05-20T03:07:00.000+08:00

DAMM....that's tight....

haha....to some people...u know wat i mean....lol....

LIANG....thanks man....i will heed your advice and not rush into things....
so as not to get hurt once more....thanks bro....

went to Coco Latte again...which was a little boring...but the music was not bad....
drink were FREE....so ok la...
dance....did some tops...gruve away....

came home early and decided to blog again....haha....

juz came back from field camp actually....shit man....one of the toughest training i every had....
esp company training.....the field movement....fuck....
i was right at the back....so every time they halt i had to run freaking at least two hundred metres with my fourty kg bag to the front line to get updates from my OC....bastard...u watch out...lol....
halt for like a million times la....i tink i jolly well be IRON MAN.... hahaha.....it was fun thou....
my last out field with my mdm...and i promised her i wun fall out...so here we go again...same olf shit again...lol.....she's going to break her contact for further studies in SMU le la....sad....but then again...thinking about SMU..... wooo~ my dream school la....can.....hahahhaa......

i'm going to sleep soon i guess....
tomolo going to be a happening day =D

pphhheewwweeeetttt!!!

2006-05-16T20:40:00.000+08:00

THANK GOD IT'S NOT TRUE THAT'S IT'S HER BROTHER....

LOL

so relieved la....
hmmm....in a freaking rush....going back to camp later...but meeting my boys down at esplanade....

chill

2006-05-13T06:49:00.000+08:00

i truely regret wat have happen juz hours ago at coco latte....

damm.....if i have been more sober....
and if i have realise she is the sister of one of the more respectable bboys....

I WOULD NOT HAVE EVEN THINK ABOUT IT....

but wat's done is done....
all i juz wan to say is....i didn't cheat wat so ever.....
she not any ordinary girl i see in a club....
besides i dun believe she club any way....
honestly speaking i do like her at a certain extend....
but will the brother believe mi??
i wun blame him....he is being a good brother....
he has all the right to be angry or worried....
like i wat said to the girl.....if ur brother wans mi to back off....
i will....becuz i respect him.....and that's the truth.....
as much as it hurts.....i dun wan to spoil something in a family thingy....
i know how it feels....trust mi......

I dun know man.....i really wan to sms her and juz ask her if she is doing fine....
at the same time.....i dun wan her brother to get the wrong idea....

DIE!!!!
God pls help mi out tis one and let mi see thru a solution man....
She's a good girl....really.....

and people....dun get mi wrong....i didn't bed her if u dirty freaking che ko pek are thinking of that......so let mi get tis straight....NO!!! WE DIDN'T.....
juz something else.....I'm not that flirt u tink i am.....

How sia.....
DAMMIT...

2006-05-07T14:47:00.000+08:00

nothing much been happening....tat's why i haven been updating regularly....

been breaking alot again.....with all the time i have....
every off in liew, every book out....

so much so i tink i need a break on the powermoves part.....
it was all good till i got tired...and more tired....
the moves juz can't have the same energy i had when i first did it....
damm....maybe it's becuz of all the food i ate....
or iszt the gym that i have been going regularly...??

SIGH!!!

i juz can't concentrate on alot of things at one time.....
so wat's it going to be.....
nice body.....or zai breaking...???

Think i better rest bah...lol....do style lor....
super alot more ideas le.....juz have to practise more...
practise practise practise....hahhaa.....hope it's not a waste of time....

been hanging out alot lately with the crew.....been going kopitiam for supper.....talking about everything.....from breaking moves to handphones to ex-girlfriends to posers to DDDOOOOOTTTTTTAAAAA!!!!!!!!!! lol =P

Oh ya....did i say??? I got a movie buddy....hehehe....she's so nice to pei mi whenever i wan to watch a movie....hahaa.....i still got three shows i wan to catch....so stand by ya??? hahahha....

Went to meet fanny they all yesterday....joshua was down too....hahaha
went to sing lor.....at party world near shenton way there.....i didn't sing la ass.....got too drunk....lol.....horrible feeling lor....i vomit and vomit and vomit at home lor.....dun wan to drink le.... =X

but sleep very nicely after i bath....hehehe.....going out soon le...
meeting liang to buy "SHOES" again.....
lol....shoe fetish......
used to be another "fetish" but let's not talk about old times bah....=)

period

2006-05-02T04:17:00.000+08:00

If u could understand....but no....
If ur attitude could stop...but no...
If u could stop acting like a girl....but no...
If u knew that our friends is of important value too....but no....

There'S one thing u sure know thou....that is to vent it all up on mi....like hello....did we even start.....??
ur vulgar emotion and language is so outstanding......well done....
and juz because i dun wan u now dun mean it cannot happen later on....
but u juz wan to disappear....
u dun even wan mi as ur friend.....
U are the CONTRADICTING one my dear....
YES! YOU!! =)

But it's ok....u wan to disappear....so be it...
i dun give a damm le....
becuz right now i dun need a girl.....

i need a women.....=D

2006-04-23T14:51:00.000+08:00

sigh....came out today earlier....and thought could break with the crew or juz go on an outing...but every one still sleeping....hmmmm....norbin sick too....take care man....

had some serious thought awhile ago...
guess i soughted out all my issues le....
and time to try make it work correctly now...

girl: sorrie man....it's juz not happening....and i dun wan to hurt u at all....=)

2006-04-21T16:51:00.000+08:00

I juz got sun burn.....ass.... in the morning....our battlion celebrated it's anniversary at sentosa....it was fun.....bikina babes dancing dirty for us every where....i was force on stage to break bare footed....showed "Bravo Coy" abit wat breaking really is....not juz jumping around...really nonsense...

We had tug of war between all the companys....and our company got second.....haha....i'm suppose to be the one pulling but dun know la...end up i juz plan who stand where and the one to tell them when pull or to maintain...lol.....super fun & funny la.

Went home feeling so tired but quickly i bath and changed out
to get ready to go to MOS ...And BOY!! i must shout out of the window le...
LAST NITE MOS WAS DOPE.....
BBOYS NITE OUT AT MOS.....
MAD PROPS TO FELIX ONCE AGAIN....
[The man hooking up with everyone to bring up the bboys in singapore.] lol

The music was dope....some funk music....bboys rock it....bust it....killed it.....
wish the whole crew would be done thou....but it's still damm fun....free entry free drinks.....really must thank the main man Felix.....always coming up with something for us....u the man bro...."BIG PROPS TO U FELIX" =D

got back most of my power at the jam le....thanks to liang and zrul...
must not be lazy....must not slacken again...
if not cheng sim ar....hahaha...oh ya....thanks geral charlie and kelvin nasser for chilling together after MOS becuz my keys wallet and phone are with kok....lol....left it in his bag and he left early....haha....never mind la....got it back le....=)

Saw my dad tis morning....made eggs for mi and my mom to eat to...haha...
best la.....Old school breakfast sia...heh....family abit better la....juz dun become like last time again....PLS!! ....or i peng let u all see.....hahaha.....

OLD SCHOOL ROCKS MAN....
OLD SCHOOL IS THE TRUE SCHOOL....

2006-04-16T17:08:00.000+08:00

today woke up feeling damm sick....what happen man??

feverish, slight cough, sore throat, feeling damm cold, feeling so numb in the joints, having a strong headache...
got my ass up and drag myself to the polyclinic nearby....but it's fucking close....cb!

came home only to hear my mom and dad talking....guess my mom is back again with her old habit...simply cannot be faithful right?? i'm sick of praying for u mom....when u are not sensible enough....saying tis make me so sad and crying now....
i should have guessed it....when u came home late everytime....when u went on cruise....i knew it lor...it's tat feeling that i hate and that feeling that always make mi disgusted....
Dad is facing a crisis...u bitch....can't u juz wake up ur bloody idea....and be there for him.....if u want out....juz get out of my life....out of our lifes....
"GIRLS WILL BE GIRLS.....NEVER FAITHFUL.....FUCKING BITCHES SHOULD BE TORTURED AND SLAIN LATER ON.....
IF I CHANCE UPON ONE I WUN HESITATE TO SLAP INCLUDING THE ONE WHO CAUSE MY DAD TO BE MISERABLE AND LOST...."
lucky for him....i know he is strong and can make it.....
i dun know how to help him now....nor make him feel better....i feel so at lost myself....and kinda feel it's all my fault....if i have taught my brother well...he wun be so strayed now....if i was at home more often...that bitch would have thought twice....

and u people wonder why i smoke....sigh....i dun know la....
the truth is even if u have a gf...she can never be there for u always....
i'm sick of finding people myself le....
till the point i gave up finding.....and juz do watever makes mi happier....

breaking does....but i can't break 24/7.... so wat am i to do after breaking always??
i really dun know man.....right now....i juz wan to disappear....
really disappear......help mi man....

2006-04-08T15:26:00.000+08:00

nothing much happen recently....juz that i got alot of offs from my duty...
pushing myself so hard to get those powermove back....it's progressing slowly....but definately i can tell that there is a difference already...

yesterday got a little misunderstanding with K....causing mi to be pissed off suddenly...dun know why....maybe it's becuz i juz wan to improve so much badly then such a kuku thing happen...but dun really care la....it's all settledand we are all cool....but secretly i was abit happy that it did happen....=X cuz i didn't know that a little anger can actually boost up myself and let me train even more....haha...
but of cuz i wun trade it for another time....=)

the day b4 yesterday....my sergant and all my shift mates went out at nite on bikes....hahaha....damm cool la....sped like super fast.....crazy dicks.....went out to west coast park hang out....climb some spider web thingy.....then went to play some langame[battle field very fun!!!!]hahaha...after that went to eat nearby....haha....super shiok...
think tat kind of thing will only happen once in my NS life man....super duper zai....

today i'm juz resting at home....cuz i played a crazy game with liang yesterday at esplanade causing my whole body to ache now....liang is tired too....hahaha......arite chill guys....

still going to break hard....
still going to chiong my power....
still going strong....;)

peace

2006-04-04T04:06:00.000+08:00

LAST THING I WAN TO BE CALLED FROM U IS A DUMB ASS....

2006-04-01T09:50:00.000+08:00

UNLUCKY DAY....

guess yesterday is one of those lousy days again....first i went out of my house to take a bus...only to see the bus i wanted to take speed off the bus stop....it's was 6pm...my duty was at 8pm,i was early so wat the heck....then suddenly the rain juz splash down from no where...when i got to the bus stop,
the next kuku bus took 35 minutes to come.....and another 30 minutes to travel to the air port....
normally it will only take bout twenty minutes....thus i was going to be late for duty....

reaching there...i quickly got ready to be deployed.....kuku la....my mdm pms make mi go back in shave my side burns....wat the hell lor.....it's above half a ear lor.....kuku la....so never mind....i go in only to find my locker door spoilt....wah piang eh.....really nothing to say.....so poor little me ran out and find who else got shaver....but decided wat the heck la....juz boarded the mini van to go to terminal 1....

reaching there....everything started to settle in.....only to see the police man i'm working with is my secondary school mate whom i hate.....lol.....wat else can be worse man.....it's funny la....imagine me and my friends back in the ah bengs days beat this kuku up....now he is a cop....and working on the same shift as me....lol....bo bian la....juz suck thumb.....
hmmm....but then again he juz kinda pretend like we didn't know each other....well good for him....he really do not wan to remember what happen back then....[trust mi] lol......

he was as irritating as ever.....coming in to our room pretending to be some big shot like he was back in the days at school....freaking funny la....last time me....i will get very irritated....but today....i dun know why he juz freaks mi out.....lol.....
anyway shift ended at 8 am today and we went back to the police station only to get an attitude from my mdm....pms la....comfirm......We all quickly changed up and got ready to book out.....my sergant called us into the van and move off to terminal 2....kukujiao la.....wrong move lor....edmund called me on the phone only to hear mdm screaming at me....u all move off for wat.....no vehical commander u know.....then i sian.....i told the driver to stop and turn back.....but sergant say never mind la....juz stop outside the door there....then all those humji ones got down and ran for their lifes....quickly flagging down all the cabs they can see....including my sergant lor....what the hell....never mind....i juz told the driver to drive back with mi and desmond left in the van.....
once back at the station i could see some black aura coming from the side of the building lor.....
kuku mdm step out from the same side and stormed her way to the van....
the next thing i know, mdm continued her loud shouting here and there.... come on lor....like it's my fault that i know there must be a vehicle commander....=X
she juz continued her "!@#$!@#$%^%^"
lol....nothing to say....

we did finally reach terminal 2...took like forever la....
but never mind....got out still smiled at my mdm and said bye....
kuku la....i could she see grinning....lol....i know u too well la...
u miss screaming at mi right....hahahaha

following then, i top up my card and left for home....
crazy day for me....but surprisingly i'm juz glad i never got moody at all....
if i am to blow up like last time....boy am i in for deep shit....=D

2006-03-31T16:35:00.000+08:00

hmmm....
feeling better already....

I juz realised that the problem with mi is that i dun wait.
i'm always impatient...always want things my way....
well i thought carefully and concluded that many things in life u got to wait....wait for the right moment....tat's the magic of it....;)

moving on will be another helpful tip....everyone seemed to have move on....doudou got her loving muscle man....J** got her sch now to be busy with.....ge**l got out of his blues and is happy now with his girl....
hahaha.....guess it's my turn rite?? better juz forget bout everything and move on bah....
deleted all those sick bitching msges already.....hmmm.....no wonder i feel better....=P

oh well.....like people care....i do it for myself....thus trusting only myself....
same goes for breaking i guess.....every one can never be there for u....u only got urself to be dependant on.....mom was always right.....sorry i took so long to understand that....=X

but better late then never.....i'm now with a brand new me....
only things to concentrate now is basically nothing.....=D
letting loose, busting it loose...

soul gangsta....here we go....

2006-03-26T02:26:00.000+08:00

been awhile since i last blog...quite alot on my mind...

FLOORSKILLZ....

was definately a lesson learnt....
with many pros out there hitting the beats....doing power that never seems to end....dancing like the soul needs to shout out of the window...footwork so fast and in many different variations....
i hereby annouce i have alot of catching up to do....sigh =(
maybe i really should juz hide in one corner and brush up instead of fooling around like i always do....damm.....wat the hell have i been doing all these years of breaking....talk too much??? freaking piss with myself.....

Teknyc, Rush, Felix, Farhan....
all shared abit on their knowledge as to how a true bboy should perform(dance)...
i was definately defeated on the spot....i feel like dropping dead....it's like fuck....the way i see it....it's not juz about being korean like....being strong in power or being a powermover...
it's about the dance....it's about the soul....it's about the music....
the music plays and u bring it out in u....not juz by doing the move....trying to hit the beat....it's about how u play it out.....being expressive in ur body....letting it loose....BUSTING IT LOOSE...
to the music....letting loose the monstar in u....not breaking in a controlled manner.....
damm.....and i tell u everytime i wan to go out....i will be nervous.....i will wan to follow the music....but that's not how it is....it's like wat Rush said...."u hear the music....and if it's your music u juz let loose and go.....and juz bring the shit on.....bam bam bam bam bam.....juz like tat...nothing more to it...."
Teknyc said "no i'm not saying it's not wrong to have the powermoves or concentrate on them....it's like u have to be in the box....it's not wrong to think out of the box....but u have to still be in the box" (in this case he is referring to FOUNDATIONS...) "Ur tops, ur footwork ur freezes....then when u get the hang on it how u put them into an abtract mode.... "

i really wan to stab myself for not doing it the right way....right now i have to sought out wat's the real shit and do it correctly i guess....

ARMY...

Good news...I've been posted to Changi Airport....yeah...going to be a rather good life....that's the good thing about being deployed....this time i'm going to a trooper....so i get to walk around the air port seeing the pretty babes walk by....
The bad news is my platoon juz changed a platoon sergant....boy is he a maniac.....i mean wtf....u juz took over the platoon and u think u got the whole company in ur hands??? he's a regular btw....madness....the first words he said was...."if u think u guys wan to play punk.....try mi....i wun hesitated to punch u all and go DB....." wtf....
totally no respect for u man.... the first time he brought mi and my HQ mates out for pt exercise....i nearly died there and then....now i have a whole body in pain....thus i can't really break well these few days....damm.... wat ever it is.....forget it bah....like they say....SAF = "serve and fuck off"
i juz do it once and do it good....complaining will juz get mi no where.....

Love Life....

nothing much have been progressing lately....maybe becuz i choose not to....
not that i dun have girls liking mi....juz that i juz dun see the thing in them....or iszt my expectation are too high.... sigh....i really am confuse now....
and it's always the case....the people whom i really like will never be there for mi....or juz wun give a damm.....but the people whom i dun take interest in juz keep coming unto mi like sandflies....i know it sounds bad la....but u got to know love is a two way thingy.....it's not juz one sided doing all the shit....so u can't really blame mi for not loving them back.....right??
j** ..... great that u found out how iszt like to be loved.....all the best ya....=)
honestly....i'm tired.....i wun deny that it does feel abit painful to know about it....
and that i'm agitated and fuck up right now....but i guess i can't really do much either....
so i shall juz continue my journey as to finding the right one....
everyone getting a partner nowadays....and it's juz puzzles mi so much....and i really that bad??
people who juz broke up can get into a relationship in like a matter a few months....it's been freaking eight months since i last broke up....i never got into a proper relationship....doudou ar...if we never broke up...i wun feel so miserable now man....i juz found my old phone....the one which i have the same model as u(doudou)....and saw all the pics and msges inside....it's really running all over again in my head....damm.....when will it ever end....freaking eight months le lor....sometimes i dun know how i should feel towards u....when i think back the times we were together...it's like u were super sweet and make mi smile and smile....and when we were about to break up, u were super mean till the extend i can grit my teeth so hard right now writing this....damm la....i really juz suck in love man....should have learn to be more independant then....
reading this fucking piece of shit piss mi off again man....FARK!!!

i really need time off from everything man....need to be alone....need to think properly....need to find out a solution to end my misery.....need some one to enlighten mi....desperately need guidance man....sheesh....=X

vic`

2006-03-18T01:48:00.000+08:00

sheesh.....floorskills was definately an eye opener this year....
it's not over yet i have no result watsoever yet....damm....i'm getting nervous like b4....
sheesshhhH!!!!!

juz ended field camp....i tink i nearly died lor.....came back in the morning one day b4 FS2006....
carried my signal set walk around like siao.....got attack by super alot of sand flies....Ch**bY*.....now i look like i got chicken pox...cannot take off shirt when i break until sweat like pig....kuku.....i will get u man.....sand flie siboh....u wait.....next field camp i bring some thing go burn all u little blood suckers...
the nite trail walk was a killer.....630 pm walk till 4am....with my signal set and fieldPACK in total about 22 kg++ bah....if that's not bad enough...listen to this....i didn't walk on the road or tracks....but in the forested area where i have to bash, chop trees, go up hill down hill, cross river, get attack by mega huge ants, get scratched by thorns AND WALK IN DARKNESS....SIAO DE!!!....all in all together with my heavy field pack cum signal set i nearly wanted to drop out....lucky i never....heng ar....save my own best pt face....lol....oh well, it's all over and i dun wan to talk about it....but sand flies u muther cHE**EE.....u wait...u wait...make mi so ugly....kuku....

anyway....all the best for mi and my crew for the results to be out tomolo....jiayou la jiayou....
really nothing to say bout the com le....they really farking zai....chiong ar!!!!

2006-03-12T20:21:00.000+08:00

juz came home....damm tired man....finish five performance in two days...
lucky for mi...the money came in already....so it's so ok la...lol...
going back camp soon man.....time is tight.....performances may be held for a stop now....but field camp is tis coming tuesday....how to tahan sia....

anyway.....i will juz take it like a man....
come out train probable for one day...then have to go straight and wack floorskillz le.....
hmmm....how how??
jiayou to mi man...
i better go prepare le....late le late le....

peace~

2006-03-12T03:28:00.000+08:00

juz came back from liquid....WOAH!!!
doPE ShyT MAN....
session till like there was no tomolo....
great to see a few farmilar faces.....
troy, felix, inertia(rf), defination,big ben, O school instructors, dharni....
damm was it tight....pretty girls every where but none for my taking....=(
when is my princess going to come....hahaha....

anyway getting back my airflare....and i sure mean it.... ; )

combos getting longer....but body getting weaker....tired le.....but still got alot of shows to do...sheesh....never mind....it will be a good experience....jiayou.....

haha.....met up with celine recently....but boy do u shock mi with ur wonderful news....hahaha
met up with j** b4 that....Ooppsss....my hand slip... =p but dun know why leh....it was like not that i purposely also....i dun know how to explain....aiyah...wat the heck rock the discotheque....lol

power moves power moves....come on come on....come to papa.....
floorskillz coming up....jia you jia you.....""O"" =p
it's going to be mi sabri and JR...with the juniors....i must not let them down....we can do it.... =)

something still missing in my life now....sigh.....
dun know wat iszt....
hope to find it soon.....=)

peace~

2006-03-11T02:40:00.000+08:00

Million things keep on changing everyday, for millions of years it never change.Thousand thoughts changing everyday, for thousand years the fact never fade away....Cherish the pastTreasure the presentLook forward to the future =)Past events are histories that are unchangeable no matter wat u attain.You shall look into lesson learnt from the events and carry on walking.Present is the current timeline that we are living in,It's the only time and space we are able to make our life better at this point of time.The friends and the universal around us is unique and only to each individual.Treasure each and everything that are happening, for it will never happen again and not to anyone else.Future is the unknown events that is awaiting usWhatever we did in the past will result in a different future.The future is equally unique and special to each of us, no one can experience the same feelings at all, not even a single glimpse.since life is so unpredictable, why not we welcome it with open arms and with a smiling face.Time is similar to a running stream.On the surface of the river, there are leaves floating along with the flow. In the bottom of the water, there are rocks and sands rolling with the current.The burden you let off will be the leaves floating away with the flow.and never come back into our life.The sadness you hold on in your heart is the rock and sand rolling under the stream that keep on drilling into your heart, hurting you even more.LET GO WILL GAIN U FREEDOM AND HAPPINESS.....peace

2006-03-09T03:45:00.000+08:00

my leave has finally came to an end....going back tomolo at nite.....9pm
sigh.....boring army...shitty army.....give mi a longer break mah....

anyway....today i tried dressing up abit....was trying to look abit like a USA bboy....:P
tink cannot make it la...lol....
went to O-school....tink i should really take a few pictures there man....it's so cool....i like =D
stay till late....forgot to bring my hp out....blah blah blah....
wat's else happen today???? eh....oh ya...she really did msg mi....hmmmm....didn't bring my phone out leh....sorrie girl ;)

came to know more about the other instructors....funny bunch.....friendly group.....
shared cab home with ben and daniel and carol....
now back here....blogging....going to sleep later i tink....juz wan to study abit more on the breaking vids....think abit more for my new found routine....=D

anyway regarding my previous blog bout how i said i hate my mom??? i take it back ya.....
i do love her to bits....juz tat i ws so angry.....sorrie mommy....hahaha....

breaking not much improvement...sianz....been battling jeral....must find more variations for my tops....be more freestyle and let loose more.....
power improve abit.....will try out a few more new links i got recently and try to be more constant.....wat else wat else....basically tat's about it i guess......
Oh....Happy birthday Dou Dou and Kai yi.....u both 21 le.....wish you girls be happy in watever things u have....stay young and pretty.....and may ur wishes come true.... ;)

guess that's about it.....will blog soon again....

peace~

2006-03-05T03:32:00.000+08:00

things in my life getting complicated.....
breaking has been tiring....till the point my joints and muscles ache....
tink i rest abit b4 continue my training....air flares....combos....power moves....let mi get u back ok???

things that has been on my mind lately:
doudou
j**
mum =(

been talking abit to doudou recently....and wonder why things turn out always this way....
u always not happy with my doings....even till now....i bet we can never achieve a happy ending even if we are still together...sorrie if i speak my mind....but u will be still u....the person that i know with not a very positive side....sorrie but tat's wat i tink u tink of all the time....at least that's the impression u give mi always when we are talking on msn or msg....aiyah i dun even know wat i'm saying....it's so complicated....it's so WEIRD....i still tink of those times and smile back thou...and u almost made mi cry again....why??? wat did u put in mi during our two year plus relationship??? why does it still hurt???
wish u will spare a thought for ur poor bf who is sick now thou....yes he is irritating....but u can't really expect him to be the perfect person rite?? not all people can endure a tough chick like u u know....i know i can....yes he can too.....wat i'm saying is....cherish wat u have now ok??? and no i'm not trying to start a war here wat so ever....so peace arite??? =)

j**:
u know how weird that it even happen??
nobody expected it la....yes....we did have happy memories....but that was not long lasting anyway....yeah i know...i ain't nobody to u....u have a life of ur own too....and i respect that....
juz miss the times we had together la....at least u were the person who cared when nobody else did....so who are they to comment?? but it didn't work out anyway....sometimes i wish u would pay abit more attention to wat i have in mind....sigh....knowing ur busy schedule and priorities....i keep telling myself....let it go let it go....but it's juz so hard and u will never understand tat....
u are mean at times to u know that?? all i did was to miss u and tried to cheer u up....and wat i got in return is a fair share of ur foul mood....sigh....it's so demoralising....it's so i dun know wat to say man....

mom....
u have change le....no longer u are that responsible mother i knew of.....i know u still care bout mi and my bro....but the thing is its not juz tat.....as a family i believe my father get a fair share of care and concern too ya??? but u juz dun understand tat....yes u know he works all day, now even must do OT to cover up some difficult times....but instead of giving him the support he needs....u went out....play with ur friends.....guys or girls i also dun know....all i know is u are always not around....wat the hell....i'm super dissappointed in u u know?? i totally cannot stand ur nonsense despite my repeated pleadings.....u juz dun understand how important it is for mi to see u and dad happy with each other....no u dun....and u say u still care bout mi....wat rubbish....
my father is always tired and u know that....i can't be around for him becuz of FUCKING ARMY....but u have the time....instead of spending quality time....u rather go drink go KTV with those joker friends of urs....u changed....and sad to say.....i dun like u any more.....not in this way....it was his birthday and where were u??? i hate u man i really do.....

lucky the only console i get is in breaking....channel all my hatred into those freaking fuck shit powermoves...busting it out all....always trying to be funny when i'm not....not at all lor....i'm so different from the rest....and yes i must agree.....aiyah watever la....

today....i went to teach my first lesson in O school.....damm was the studio tight....went breaking in the studio after the lesson....
girls were hot....met ben too....everyone was so cool looking and professional....
btw did i mention milk from energy was there too?? fucking crazy fans....u are stupid i tell u all....no offense to milk...but i juz tink that the girls there are so kuku la....
anyway i took a pic with him and also got him to sign the studio instructor cap....maybe i can sell it on ebay =P hahah...
then went to esplanade to break after tat....was sick....and also my joints and muscle hurting from those hardcore pushing in powermoves....so can't do much....guess i really really need my rest le....after which we went to jeral house nearby for supper following which we went up to his place to mix a song for the performance coming ahead....sigh....i really miss performing.....but with my fucking skill.....perform ki lan.....=X anyway went back home after that.....gilbert gave mi and alex a lift[ Thanks bert, it was nice of u =) ]....i guess bert is a happy man now ya....jiayou to u and joyce arite???
so many things in my head going round and round and round......
tell mi how sia....haiz....watever bah.....God will help mi pull tis thru....i'm sure he has his reasons in the first place....
Victor is not really a happy person now....never really was in the first place....

period.

2006-03-03T10:59:00.000+08:00

holiday for a week.....
wtf....
time for some good HARDCORE training.....
time for some clubbing with dope music and booze.....
time to hit the BEACH and TAN!!!!......wooo hoooo~~

deployment ended and now here comes my long deserved holiday...
going to make full use of it....
not going to spend much money thou.....
but if possible i dun mind clubbing....not at all....hahaha
going to chiong my power till like siao......
catch up with zrul and liang....
then keep playing cypher with them.....
sure damm fun la....if al three can long combos....
or rather if i can long combo....cuz the two of them already can =(
oh well....hope i have this one full week properly plan out....
no smoking pls......i had enough le.....stop for quite some time....but the urge is still there....ass.....

anyway...juz one more thing to add....
juz hope everyones getting arite.....lol :P

peace yall....

2006-02-27T01:51:00.000+08:00

hmmm.....updates since my last blog...

life is slack.....
i'm getting lean again...
combos coming back....
family got money problem....
i juz missed my date today....=X

all in all....life is going better in some places....not so good in other places...
now breaking will be my main concern....
God will lead mi to where he wans mi to go....

miss my crew....
miss my air flares...
and missing u=X

sigh....u guys stay happy ya....
jiayou....=)

2006-02-22T00:05:00.000+08:00

guess who back....back again.....;)

the usual tiredness....never seem to change....but looking forward to all the off in liew they owe mi.....freaking alot la....hahaha.....
HMMMM....first thing first.....
congrats to my crew FTC for bringing home the dough at elias cc for FUNK IT OUT 2006
well done boys.....=)
Well.... missing one on my count....=( can't wait to ord for all these nonsense to end man....i juz damm looking forward to Floorskillz now....I got a good one day to rest properly b4 the competition starts....hopefully nothing crop up man....pls man....Oh God help mi on this one...i wan to pull thru at least two rounds.....get my combos clean.....my tops rocking....tat's all i ask....for my part...

hmmm.....recently nothing much happen.....but i did get to chat up with that girl again....was thinking since i can't forget her might as well fight it up....even if we never get to be together again...at least i know i tried.... ;)
oh ya jeral....u so silly la... hahah =P *****......ssshhhhhhh i forgot le.....****

basically i know i juz missed u guys at FUNK IT OUT.....but i believe FTC really did rock the house in elias cc....surely we can do that same if not more impact to floorskillz ya....Guys u ready?? FT BBOYS LET"S GO!!!

2006-02-17T08:11:00.000+08:00

Back from deployment early morning.

A very tired body, a very tired soul. deployment was slack as usual...but the gym training sure wasn't....whole body aching from the daily good beatings i put onto my body....:P
but i'm sure all these hard work will one day pay off....so not much complains bout that....Oh ya....and my IPOD and speakers been put to good use!! I'm loving it =D

Been interacting with my Mdm quite alot recently...dun know is good or bad....stay up the whole nite with her and some sergants to gamble "BAN LUCK" haha.....stop at 5.30 am b4 packing up to book out only....Well... it was wonderful la....won some money....=P

I WAN TO COMPLAIN!!!!
My friends in camp force mi to smoke....even my sergants.....saying why i stop? why i lidat...
But rest assure i didn't la....it's DAY 08 already since i touch a fag....proud??? i wonder man....simply becuz the urge to smoke is still there and very much unbearable....i know it's for my own good....juz wan to do my mom and dad and my crew who dislike mi smoking proud man....still going strong against smoking....so hell yeah....going to perservere more.....=)
Not really angry with my camp mates thou....juz a little sad that tis is how they help a friend trying for a change of heart.

haven touch breaking for awhile....no mood recently....girl problem i guess....been thinking abit again.....i really need a good hug now.....dammm....

Damm Army....u screw my life big time man....really....
u took my love life and tore it up.....u take my breaking and crushed it....and make mi so stress all the time....ass....i'm have to miss another competition held tomolo thanks to u....freaking Army i hate u!!!

hopefully the crew will be down later....then i can chill out hang tight....practise hard and sweat my troubles away....hmmm....
Frienz hope all is well for u all too....=)

peace

2006-02-13T15:51:00.000+08:00

hey yo wassup peepz....

WOOhoo....i juz bought my ipod video and speakers....so two down from my wish list....many more to go....haha...damm happy i can put alot of pictures songs and videos inside....and my speakers match my ipod video....glossy black....yummy!!!
anyway....life been ok....of cuz it sure helps without mdm being around....beside tat, deployment been nothing much....been slacking....been thinking still....been lonely....been deproving in breaking again....
but hey guess wat....i haven smoke for like four days....so all the mixed feeling now is definately worth it....;)

i dun really have alot to say nowadays....dun know why....maybe been on my own for quite some time or maybe becuz of watching too much dvds movies in office.....haha.....
anyway u guys take care ya...breakers continue to break hard arite??
Floor Skillz juz around the corner...Rock on ya....

peace. =)

2006-02-06T20:58:00.000+08:00

ANYWAY I DUN HAVE THE RIGHT TO ASK....
AND U DUN HAVE THE NEED TO TELL MI....
dotz....:
Tat juz pierce right thru me if u know wat i mean...maybe there's really no hope in pursuing anymore....maybe i should juz give it up....right?? =)
Maybe juz maybe...

i juz wan some answer....and i know my God will help mi soon....=)

Recently i been distracted in breaking lately...
hmmmm....this girl who Dharni knows always catching my attention.....
i dun even know her...and she got me thinking....hmmm....
I dun know la....hahahai should juz concentrate on breaking bah....
or should i juz heck and try my luck??
WELL all i know is i suck at love....even if i'm going to try it probable would not work like my other relationships....basically all are pure catastrophe....
GOD u decide for mi ya....=)

2006-01-30T18:56:00.000+08:00

DAY 2 LUNAR NEW YEAR....

sucks....i'm going back camp in two hours time....when all my relatives are at my home....
how wonderful.....anyway had a small talk with that girl....and i guess i finally understand....
it will never be the same again....[y**Q*N]i should have listen to you tat nite.....i really regret man....but it's still not too late....i'm really going to make a difference now.....

really didn't wan things to turn out this way....but i guess it's for the better....well girl....i wish u all the best in watever u do ya....i'll still be here....be here for u.... =)

Things to focus on this coming month....
DEPLOYMENT.....
BREAKING.....
GYM.....
FITNESS....
AND GOD....

juz hope all these will keep me occupied so i won't think so much....

hopefully i save well too...to get my first wish....a digital camera...for floorskillz and also to take alot of pictures to update my blog and other stuffs....hmmmm....jia you to me =D
i dun know wat's tat i'm feeling thou.....the feeling of wanting to cry but can't.....the sharp pains of the heart whenever i tink of her.....BUT i must refocus....i must be strong....i must do it....

beginning to think all these is a joke....but wat the heck....rock the dico tech.....heh....
people out there who have problem in love.....my advice.....stay out till u are really sure she/he is the one...or unless u are the one who wan to play bastard....then i wish u good luck....=) well i tink i stop here.....dun know when i will come back home to blog again....my guess is earliest in two days time....latest by saturday.....

p.s. if there always another chances....wat will u do??

period

2006-01-29T13:19:00.000+08:00

hey yo.....wassup peeps....

juz wana wish u all a HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR....
it's tat time of the year again where everyone going to collect "ANG PAO"(red packet)
hopefully my collection tis year will be fruitful =P

anyway juz wan to update wat happen yesterday....
in the morning went for Soc training in the camp.....
shag....YES!! but i wun deny it's good training.....i can see my abs coming back.....
hahaha.....i'm vain!! can?? =)

in the afternoon was waiting for the girl to meet mi.....sigh....waited and waited....
in the end she has to go for reunion dinner.....so it's another same day.....nothing happen.....=X
i went to my grand ma place for my own reunion dinner.....ate some good food....but was cautious not to eat so much becuz i didn't want to waste the effort i spend on SOC last morning....lol...After which i watch GODZILLA for awhile.....everything was getting boring and started to miss her again....so i decided to go break in the end......
wrong choice....no one was there.....hazrul, sabri, jr, sayliang and mi.....stuck there with no music....we train abit none the less....
after which i went to meet up with a long time friend of mine.....ex gf actually....but it was like super long ago la....hmmm.....i juz thought i needed some one to wake mi up.....from all the problems i have....=(
We went to cheers first....was deciding over liquor or juz some normal drinks....decided not to get drunk tat nite.....hmmm....starting talking abit....then i told her about my situation and ask for some advice....hmmmm thanks girl.....i know wat to do le.....(jia you to mi!! wooo~~)
Well hopefully i can keep to wat i promise myself....
Must be the Old Victor again.....JEAH!!!
basically we talked till like three thirty....played some games, swung some swings hahah....blah blah blah....then i headed home by cab.....
so long never see her.....she still look so the same....juz with longer hair....
Well i guess people dun change so much in the end after all....hahaha
Was glad i met her.....it's been a long time.... =)

Well guys....tat's all for now ya....i need to go out visiting le....hopefully my breaking will be able to maintain.....really must do FTC and myself proud for floorskillz 4 this year man.....damm nervous.....
Jia You to FTC!!! JEAH!!!

peace

2006-01-28T04:47:00.000+08:00

I believe i juz stop blogging juz moments ago....already i juz feel like blogging more...

Why did i wan to start this online thingy is simply becuz i juz have too much to say but ain't no one to hear mi....

Time: 4.54am

i juz got a msg back....from the girl whom i take interest in....wishing mi Gd Luck...
for a training i'm going to have in an few hours time....YES!! no doubt it's Army training....
freaking failed my SOC juz becuz i didn't dare to jump of a high ram with cone wire below.....but fuck it....it was my first time arite....my freaking first run down....u can't really expect mi to pass it so smoothly....it's called Standard Obstacle Course for a reason.....so i have to go back camp later for remedial training.....how exciting....=X

Anyway....tat's besides the point...
this thing has been getting abit on my nerve and i juz thought i must say out....
MI AND HER....AIN'T THE SAME NO MORE.... Army made mi into a person who juz dun understand a girl's heart any more.... girls are such weird creatures....
Plain dumb i suppose....i dun know....I juz suck at love....

period.

2006-01-28T01:46:00.000+08:00

woo~~ first time on doing this....how would i start...??

hmmmm......

Name: Victor Soh

tink i stop there.....anymore introducing i might as well go to the online dating website.....

about mi....

very much into dance....breakdance to be precise...

hiphop lover....
GOD lover....
but ain't no one's lover.... (sigh)

cheerful at times....sad most of the times....
always thinking bout stuffs that want to make mi a better person....
like to spend alot of money....splurging them on clothes....(since i juz broke up)
just thought i make my self look more confident =P

trying to become a more positive person right now....
praying to God always keeps mi going as to wat i wan....
dancing wise(breaking)....not so much progress thou....

but the never say die spirit is always in mi....
the pride to be on the top is always there....
well i have to work harder on that part i guess.....

Didn't i juz say i broke up??
Actually it was a cool 5 mths back....(was it??)
anyway i have a girl now...on and off....wondering if
she still interested in mi....
hmmm.....long long story.....shall talk about it when i'm in the mood....=)

Hiphop....till u dun stop....
yes....people who dun know me might find mi
abit on the extreme side(tat's wat i tink)....
i'm that sought who wears a bandana when i go out....
and people will juz start looking....Hiphop?? weird???
i dun know...tat's juz mi....

I have a wonderful family....wonderful crew whom i dance with together alot....
but i'm in the army...so yeah....maybe not that much after all....
YES! CREW....name Floor Technique....aka F.T.C.
and i'm proud of it....will tell u more once i get the hang of blogging soon ;)

oh well tat's about it for now....will update soon ya....
hope this blog will be turn out to be a beautiful one....

peace...