things in my life getting complicated.....
breaking has been tiring....till the point my joints and muscles ache....
tink i rest abit b4 continue my training....air flares....combos....power moves....let mi get u back ok???

things that has been on my mind lately:
doudou
j**
mum =(

been talking abit to doudou recently....and wonder why things turn out always this way....
u always not happy with my doings....even till now....i bet we can never achieve a happy ending even if we are still together...sorrie if i speak my mind....but u will be still u....the person that i know with not a very positive side....sorrie but tat's wat i tink u tink of all the time....at least that's the impression u give mi always when we are talking on msn or msg....aiyah i dun even know wat i'm saying....it's so complicated....it's so WEIRD....i still tink of those times and smile back thou...and u almost made mi cry again....why??? wat did u put in mi during our two year plus relationship??? why does it still hurt???
wish u will spare a thought for ur poor bf who is sick now thou....yes he is irritating....but u can't really expect him to be the perfect person rite?? not all people can endure a tough chick like u u know....i know i can....yes he can too.....wat i'm saying is....cherish wat u have now ok??? and no i'm not trying to start a war here wat so ever....so peace arite??? =)

j**:
u know how weird that it even happen??
nobody expected it la....yes....we did have happy memories....but that was not long lasting anyway....yeah i know...i ain't nobody to u....u have a life of ur own too....and i respect that....
juz miss the times we had together la....at least u were the person who cared when nobody else did....so who are they to comment?? but it didn't work out anyway....sometimes i wish u would pay abit more attention to wat i have in mind....sigh....knowing ur busy schedule and priorities....i keep telling myself....let it go let it go....but it's juz so hard and u will never understand tat....
u are mean at times to u know that?? all i did was to miss u and tried to cheer u up....and wat i got in return is a fair share of ur foul mood....sigh....it's so demoralising....it's so i dun know wat to say man....

mom....
u have change le....no longer u are that responsible mother i knew of.....i know u still care bout mi and my bro....but the thing is its not juz tat.....as a family i believe my father get a fair share of care and concern too ya??? but u juz dun understand tat....yes u know he works all day, now even must do OT to cover up some difficult times....but instead of giving him the support he needs....u went out....play with ur friends.....guys or girls i also dun know....all i know is u are always not around....wat the hell....i'm super dissappointed in u u know?? i totally cannot stand ur nonsense despite my repeated pleadings.....u juz dun understand how important it is for mi to see u and dad happy with each other....no u dun....and u say u still care bout mi....wat rubbish....
my father is always tired and u know that....i can't be around for him becuz of FUCKING ARMY....but u have the time....instead of spending quality time....u rather go drink go KTV with those joker friends of urs....u changed....and sad to say.....i dun like u any more.....not in this way....it was his birthday and where were u??? i hate u man i really do.....

lucky the only console i get is in breaking....channel all my hatred into those freaking fuck shit powermoves...busting it out all....always trying to be funny when i'm not....not at all lor....i'm so different from the rest....and yes i must agree.....aiyah watever la....

today....i went to teach my first lesson in O school.....damm was the studio tight....went breaking in the studio after the lesson....
girls were hot....met ben too....everyone was so cool looking and professional....
btw did i mention milk from energy was there too?? fucking crazy fans....u are stupid i tell u all....no offense to milk...but i juz tink that the girls there are so kuku la....
anyway i took a pic with him and also got him to sign the studio instructor cap....maybe i can sell it on ebay =P hahah...
then went to esplanade to break after tat....was sick....and also my joints and muscle hurting from those hardcore pushing in powermoves....so can't do much....guess i really really need my rest le....after which we went to jeral house nearby for supper following which we went up to his place to mix a song for the performance coming ahead....sigh....i really miss performing.....but with my fucking skill.....perform ki lan.....=X anyway went back home after that.....gilbert gave mi and alex a lift[ Thanks bert, it was nice of u =) ]....i guess bert is a happy man now ya....jiayou to u and joyce arite???
so many things in my head going round and round and round......
tell mi how sia....haiz....watever bah.....God will help mi pull tis thru....i'm sure he has his reasons in the first place....
Victor is not really a happy person now....never really was in the first place....

period.