been awhile since i last blog...quite alot on my mind...

FLOORSKILLZ....

was definately a lesson learnt....
with many pros out there hitting the beats....doing power that never seems to end....dancing like the soul needs to shout out of the window...footwork so fast and in many different variations....
i hereby annouce i have alot of catching up to do....sigh =(
maybe i really should juz hide in one corner and brush up instead of fooling around like i always do....damm.....wat the hell have i been doing all these years of breaking....talk too much??? freaking piss with myself.....

Teknyc, Rush, Felix, Farhan....
all shared abit on their knowledge as to how a true bboy should perform(dance)...
i was definately defeated on the spot....i feel like dropping dead....it's like fuck....the way i see it....it's not juz about being korean like....being strong in power or being a powermover...
it's about the dance....it's about the soul....it's about the music....
the music plays and u bring it out in u....not juz by doing the move....trying to hit the beat....it's about how u play it out.....being expressive in ur body....letting it loose....BUSTING IT LOOSE...
to the music....letting loose the monstar in u....not breaking in a controlled manner.....
damm.....and i tell u everytime i wan to go out....i will be nervous.....i will wan to follow the music....but that's not how it is....it's like wat Rush said...."u hear the music....and if it's your music u juz let loose and go.....and juz bring the shit on.....bam bam bam bam bam.....juz like tat...nothing more to it...."
Teknyc said "no i'm not saying it's not wrong to have the powermoves or concentrate on them....it's like u have to be in the box....it's not wrong to think out of the box....but u have to still be in the box" (in this case he is referring to FOUNDATIONS...) "Ur tops, ur footwork ur freezes....then when u get the hang on it how u put them into an abtract mode.... "

i really wan to stab myself for not doing it the right way....right now i have to sought out wat's the real shit and do it correctly i guess....

ARMY...

Good news...I've been posted to Changi Airport....yeah...going to be a rather good life....that's the good thing about being deployed....this time i'm going to a trooper....so i get to walk around the air port seeing the pretty babes walk by....
The bad news is my platoon juz changed a platoon sergant....boy is he a maniac.....i mean wtf....u juz took over the platoon and u think u got the whole company in ur hands??? he's a regular btw....madness....the first words he said was...."if u think u guys wan to play punk.....try mi....i wun hesitated to punch u all and go DB....." wtf....
totally no respect for u man.... the first time he brought mi and my HQ mates out for pt exercise....i nearly died there and then....now i have a whole body in pain....thus i can't really break well these few days....damm.... wat ever it is.....forget it bah....like they say....SAF = "serve and fuck off"
i juz do it once and do it good....complaining will juz get mi no where.....

Love Life....

nothing much have been progressing lately....maybe becuz i choose not to....
not that i dun have girls liking mi....juz that i juz dun see the thing in them....or iszt my expectation are too high.... sigh....i really am confuse now....
and it's always the case....the people whom i really like will never be there for mi....or juz wun give a damm.....but the people whom i dun take interest in juz keep coming unto mi like sandflies....i know it sounds bad la....but u got to know love is a two way thingy.....it's not juz one sided doing all the shit....so u can't really blame mi for not loving them back.....right??
j** ..... great that u found out how iszt like to be loved.....all the best ya....=)
honestly....i'm tired.....i wun deny that it does feel abit painful to know about it....
and that i'm agitated and fuck up right now....but i guess i can't really do much either....
so i shall juz continue my journey as to finding the right one....
everyone getting a partner nowadays....and it's juz puzzles mi so much....and i really that bad??
people who juz broke up can get into a relationship in like a matter a few months....it's been freaking eight months since i last broke up....i never got into a proper relationship....doudou ar...if we never broke up...i wun feel so miserable now man....i juz found my old phone....the one which i have the same model as u(doudou)....and saw all the pics and msges inside....it's really running all over again in my head....damm.....when will it ever end....freaking eight months le lor....sometimes i dun know how i should feel towards u....when i think back the times we were together...it's like u were super sweet and make mi smile and smile....and when we were about to break up, u were super mean till the extend i can grit my teeth so hard right now writing this....damm la....i really juz suck in love man....should have learn to be more independant then....
reading this fucking piece of shit piss mi off again man....FARK!!!

i really need time off from everything man....need to be alone....need to think properly....need to find out a solution to end my misery.....need some one to enlighten mi....desperately need guidance man....sheesh....=X

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